Childhood dreams

Do you have a hobby? Sounds like a question for a 5th grader. But I really mean it. When you were younger what were your wishes? You now, those things you wanted to do when you grow up. Wonder how many people actually follow their dreams. Guessing not a lot, because whenever I hear about those people it’s always presented as some news, as something unusual. OK, I understand that we all change our views as we grow up, sometimes we get interested in some other things and sometimes we just go with the flow and use given chances instead of chasing ones we actually really want.

Reaching out for memories

But anyways, let say we have to work to survive. We have to have a steady job, because of all this adult stuff like paying rent, bills etc. But how many of us remember childhood dreams. How many follow them at least in form of a hobby. Or some little satisfaction that we grant ourselves in some free time that we have.

While writing I am thinking about my dreams and wishes. And I understand that life serves us different things, and our choices determine what we are. So if I am choosing some things that earlier weren’t on my wish list, does that mean my wishes change and grow with me? Answer is in a simple 90s hit “if it makes you happy”.

My decisions

I made once a huge step, quit my steady, I may even say nice job, change the country also and started again. And you what, it made me happy. Even though I still haven’t achieved my goal, it made me happy to know that I tried. And I am still trying.Sometimes I think about some hobbies. Just to fulfill my free time. And I really wish everyone has a chance to do that, like I am trying to do. As I was little, I used to write some poems. They were really funny and childish. But then again so was I. Then I even started to write some novel, I don’t know now what happened to those few sheets I wrote. But still, no matter if it was good or not, it was a thing that made me happy, and this writing thing still does. I also like to sing. Even though I can’t get two tones together to sound good, it doesn’t matter, I sing (I just try not to torture others with my singing :)). Also, I like photography, and of course (as in other things) I am not especially good at it, but those are my photos, for and with my friends, and it makes me happy. So I take photos very often.

And that is my point. If you had a dream, but it didn’t go well, or maybe you weren’t the best at it (at some other people criteria) you can still do it. For yourself. Go for it.

Wedding dress

Sweet dress worries and how they don’t have to be important

I read once such a good saying. It says that you have to have a plan and a goal in your life. If plan doesn’t work don’t change the goal, just change the plan. I have really been thinking about it and I really like the idea. I am trying to live a little bit in according to these saying. And also I try not to forget to put myself sometimes in a first place when I make plans. This is a year of planing for me actually. I am planing my wedding and I have to say it’s not an easy task always. But everything goes a lot better when I stop to worry too much. It goes as it goes and whether I worry or not at some things I can not make any influence.

How it went

For example I’ve found a wedding dress online that I wanted to have. Made an appointment in a store where they have the dress. I thought it is going to be 15min job. My plan was to come, try the dress on and book it. But as usual not everything goes as planned. The owner had some issues about renting me the dress because I am to skinny for her taste (!!!). She wasn’t into correcting the dress by my measures (because she had a bigger dress that needed to be corrected). And then I just went to another store, picked up few dresses, tried them on and chose one. It’s not the dress that I wanted, I’m not even sure if I like it that much, but I just wanted to cross that out from my check list and so I did. Plan successfully changed but goal remained, I have a wedding dress.


Anyways I was thinking later and thought to myself why I chose the dress that I don’t really like, but the answer that I gave myself is pretty simple, I ain’t going to worry about a dress, she is pretty it is just not my style, but neither are weddings but still I am having one.

In the end it’s all about perspective. There is no point of worrying and giving myself (yourself) a headache over one day, one dress.

And yeah, it also helps to have a friend, a fiance who can really understand and support you in times of worry, no matter if you worry about little or big things. I luckily have that, so in the end why should I worry about some dress, apparently I have made the right choices with the man I love, I am sure that nothing else regarding the wedding day can be more important than that. Choose wise 🙂

Dial up internet

Well thats a painful subject. You can even start talking about it using fairy phrases like “a long time ago”… well, I remember it existing, and even using it (which is more terrifying). Let me refresh your memory my fellas. Do you know what year dial up internet commercially started – it was 1992, can you imagine. Of course, not all of us were so technically advanced to use it right away, but still, to know it was 25 years ago when it started makes you feel a bit odd/old.


Can you remember the sound? It was connecting to another galaxy. Like you can hear aliens speaking, and then it starts. First what you do is open internet explorer. Poor little thing, as slow as he is, he still managed to open some home page. And as soon as you start typing – your mom yells “get off of the internet, I need to make a phone call”. Remember that? It was either… or.. and the speed.. I think that made us (late) 80s kids a bit more tolerant and patient, because dial up internet thought us if you want something – you need to learn how to wait, and wait, and wait… And eventually, we were provided with information. Its speed of 20kbit/s. Just to compare, today’s average internet speed of average household is 20Mbit/s, just a thousand times faster. It was the time when less smart asses were bragging with stories, because for every little subject they were right about before, now you could have google it”. And win a lot of arguments with facts, you had to chance to be smarter (if you wanted it).


But now, we take everything for granted. If youre mobile internet connections speed decreases, youre already annoyed, inpatient, pissed off. Do you know who still uses dial up internet? Your first thought may be – no-one, but ewer, youre wrong. Of course, its not a significant number, but there are people in rural environment, still using dial up internet. I wonder how does it feel now (not that I would change it)? Now when they still can connect, maybe it isnt so slow if you think about the fact that those people probably have better equipment (such as modems, and computers) than we used to.

It would have been fun to try it now and then. To pick up few memories of patience while you try to order some piece of clothes on sale, or gadget on auction. I bet it would be funny to try to participate in an auction. Till you click one time to type an offer – it was already sold among 200 other faster clickers. But then again, you are patient. Your time will come.